Am sorry that you have been drinking but you need to stop take a deep breathe and get rid of the drink ...what is drink going to do to change what is going on right now ? your wasting money on drink when you need to pay bills have you tried deiter anonymous or a avocate to deal with your deit ? if you need help try and get it if you feel like drinking instead of drinking call someone or read the Big book a little , pray keep your self busy distractions
the bottom of a bottle will not help you but seeking help will help you