Hi SC,
I'm sorry for the pain you are dealing with. There is no easy way to get sober. You will feel uncomfortable at times. We cannot go around it, we must go through it before we begin to heal. It's all worth it!
Hang in there...take the advice that's here and start moving through the needed steps to begin a new life. You CAN do this...but you need to want it more than anything else in your life.