Originally Posted by
sweetichick 
I have considered rehab but the one nearby doesn't allow smoking. I have a psychiatrist who thinks me and my friend are codependent. Counseling didn't work. My gotoes for not drinking were going to the movies or down the beach. That didn't work as there never seemed to be a movie at the same time as a craving or not enough petrol to get to the beach. Maybe I am just not trying hard enough. It's like I couldn't control me going to the bottle shop. Scary.
You can control what you are doing. It is your choice. The car did not drive itself to the store and park. The car did not go into the store and buy the vodka. Reaching out for help could have been one of the options to take before driving to the store. The decisions that are made before and after make or break this situation. You may not want sobriety?