Really struggling to check in here today. I'm not great at expressing myself. I've not been able to get to a meeting for 2 days either.
It hit me earlier that my whole life has been controlled by alcohol and I'm vaguely sad about those 20 years or so. But I'm not overly concerned about my past. As long as alcohol never comes near me again. The truth is out. I also know I have to build something from the rubble left behind by me drunk and stomping around like Godzilla on all my relationships and hopes for a career. But I'm not too concerned about the future either.
I seem to be in a different space on day 24. Some kind of calm, or clear perspective, that I've never felt in my life. Maybe a chance of a new direction. I want more of this. I hope I'm not just spaced out from the bug.