Stewy
IMHO, I don't think it's fair to say the only advice you've been given is in-patient rehab. That just shows how concerned people are about you. Other suggestions were therapy, CBT, exercising, AA.. and out-patient group therapy. I hope I'm wrong, but it doesn't seem like you are interested in these ideas either. Yes, you managed 2.5 years and that's fantastic but it sounds like whatever you did in the past just isn't working this time. Hope you find a path that works for you. Good Luck. John