Hey Bud...Hmm, you certainly are in a rough spot. I'm really sorry you are struggling.
Everyone here has given you plenty of suggestions here...but everything you've tried doesn't seem to stick. Don't you think it's time to try another approach?
I know you don't want to go to rehab and you have all sorts of reasons not to. What it all boils down to is how badly you want to change your life. You know how it feels to be free from alcohol, rehab would provide you with a foundation.
Think of your daughter Stewy and the relationship you will have with her as she grows up. My father was an alcoholic and I'm still dealing with horrific memories from a very young age. Is that what you want for her?
A new life is right there in front of you my friend...grab it!