Deelilah - There are really a lot more recovering crackheads here than you would think
I don't have the microwave like Tess does, but I have driven past numerous places where I think "oh yeah, smoked crack there" or "dope boy met me at that gas station" kind of stuff.
This is a link to someone we crack addicts adore. It's a very long thread, may have extensions, but Larry is awesome. Several of us wanted to shake some sense into him for a while, and now we are so very proud of him.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-lifetime.html
I'm just sharing this so you know that some of us crackheads really do recover.
Sorry about the a/c but stuff happens. As someone who is also a recovering codie, I know all about "was than oops or something more?" It's usually an oops, we're just used to walking on eggshells and questioning ourselves.
I think you're doing great and am glad you're here.