I destroyed my life as completely on pot as I did on alcohol Viper. I had an insatiable need to feel good, & an innate belief that 6 drops, say, must feel twice as good as 3...
you're the type of guy with a lot of complicating factors in your life - some you've chosen and others have been imposed on you.
It's tempting to find something that cuts through all that and works on the angst - but the angst is often only the symptom.
If you can find a doctor to prescribe it when you've been honest and open about your entire history, addictive and otherwise, then good luck to you, but I wouldn't touch it with a bargepole.
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