Thank you all for your kind responses. I did go to my CR meeting last night and managed to share that I am grateful for recovery as it shows me my part in why we are at this point and the things I have to do to move past this.
I also ordered the Alanon book Opening our Hearts, Transforming our Losses. I have a library full of "self-help" books that are only as helpful as I am willing to apply the principles but I am hoping that this book will help me as I grieve the loss of what I thought my relationship would be.
Scheduling an appt w an attorney will be next on my list.
