Ha ha. I'm not sure Dandy. Today was Cinco de Mayo so a few of them had some pre-game festivities. I didn't go because my daughter wanted to go to the game and I don't go take her to stuff like that just so I can hang out.
Maybe I'll go to happy hour in a few weeks. Maybe not. It was nice to get out and socialize.
I do feel guilty for having fun which is absolutely stupid. And I do have these awkward feelings about my love for her. Like did I really love her as much as I said I did. I feel like I did but I also feel like I'm "moving on" pretty quickly which adds another layer of stupid guilt and feelings.
I guess I'm just struggling with living my own life. Haven't done it for a couple years.