Checking in... a number of months... still in pain... still crazy!
Hi everyone,
It's been quite a while.... months... since my last drink! Hurray. Unfortunately, the dull pain in my liver hasn't gone away. I have lost 20 pounds from eating veggies and lean proteins. I can do 45 minute aerobics classes now. But the pain remains....
I'm still so scared it's too late. I thought this would be over.
The health anxiety has not gone ANYWHERE. I lost my job (laid off) so I lost my ability to go see a counselor. I was doing well for a while. I now talk to support groups online and go to meetings but I am quiet at them. I am still staring at my chest to check for spider nevis and my eyes to see if my whites are yellow. The other day I had a big dinner with cheese and some things I hadn't eaten in a while and now I'm five pounds up after a few days and I am scared again that it is ascites.
I do think that I am probably crazy. But has anyone had this problem? The pain that doesn't go away? Did you get diagnosed with cirrhosis? How do you deal with it if you can't afford a psychiatrist?