Sober,
Anyone that can drink as hard as you has to be a superman.
Addiction is a monster.
Since you are relatively young, you may bounce right back to a fairly decent state of health quickly.
I was not as addictive as you so I can not speak from experience.
Your drinking bio is terrifying though, and fear was a good motivation tool for me to quit.
Think about this...you are clean now 24 hours...but you feel like hell.
That is brain damage. Just like getting hit with a hammer. There is a good chance some permanent damage is there, but the brain and body can heal well.
It has taken me nearly 2 years and counting to feel....normal.
The gotcha is....I got so used to being drunk...I forgot what normal is.
Some folks have to quit boozing because they get in trouble w the law.
Others, like me...maybe you...manage to not get in trouble and drink long enough to start to really feel the mental and physical effects.
Eventually, the drunkenness doesn't go away. My drunk buddy slurs all day long. Every time he talks it sounds like he just woke up.
Eventually, the drunkenness turns to insanity.
Scared yet.
That is my motivation everyday. I don't drive my car 100 mph because I don't want to die,
I don't drink because I don't want to die.
Thanks.