Hi nobenders, Dee and Phoenix!
Huge congrats on 5 months Jillwink! That's so great
You're right Kenton, I've never seen a situation where Dee didn't have something wise and helpful to say! Dee, are you one of the people who write all the wise quotes for motivational calendars and stuff? ;-)
Solly, well done on 23 weeks, amazing!
have a nice, sober holiday! Sparkling water with lime is extremely refreshing, too! Or do you like tonic water? If it's hot outside I sometimes crave that bitter taste and it's a bit like beer in that way.
I'm still struggling with my cold. I have it for 2 weeks now already... I'm getting a bit frustrated cause I don't feel very happy when I'm ill. Yesterday my therapist said though, that it's normal and that it would be weird if I were happy when I'm ill cause it would suggest I like being ill. I've never seen it that way. I told her how hard it is for me to accept ups and downs or just changes in my mood or changes in general. She said it's good and healthy to experience ups and downs. Knowing that took away some of the stress and frustration I felt over not being happy. I really have to learn how to live.
The good news are, that I feel a definite improvement in my energy levels lately. I struggled with fatigue and low energy for so long and it just didn't seem to get better in sobriety, at least the first weeks were actually worse than in my drinking days.
But yesterday I got (for my standards) loads done. I got up at 7, went to my therapy session, did the groceries, went home, called my health insurance and made a doctors appointment at an asthma specialist, found a doctor that could see me for my ankle that day, went there which took 4 hours all in all, went home, ate lunch, went to an AA meeting and then went home, tidied up, did the laundry and cooked a healthy dinner.
All of that after only 6h of sleep, with a cold and a really painful ankle. That made me feel much better about sobriety and myself again.
The meeting was good again, it's a medium sized group and I like that it's not overly spiritual. Which isn't bad or anything but right now, I can't identity much with the spiritual part. What can be a bit weird is that I am much younger than all the others. I still can identify with a lot of what they say but it's harder to develop friendships or do things together when most of them could be my (grand)parents.
Then tonight my boyfriend was supposed to come over but I wasn't overly in the mood for company. So I asked whether he wanted to come over tomorrow at noon instead cause he mentioned how tired he was anyway. He agreed that this would be better for him too and now I somehow feel sad about this. How stupid. It was my idea from begin with. I am great at confusing myself. I'm getting better at not worrying or feeling rejected in situations like this though.
Have an amazing weekend everyone and a good and sober mayday! (Dunno where in the world it's a thing really but here the whole city will drown in beer that day, so I won't leave the house)