Originally Posted by notgonnastoptry
In my situation, I've thought about writing a heartfelt note. But every time I go over it in my mind, it comes down to me making excuses for the most awful, immoral behavior, so I don't write the note because I know in the first line, I would be making excuses as to why. I guess there was an excuse, but who cares. I messed up.
I hear ya! I have felt the same way. I actually didn't know what I did much of the time because I blacked out a lot, but I was responsible for it nonetheless because I know that drinking causes it. I couldn't control my actions under the influence, but it was getting under the influence that was completely my doing. So, yeah.