Dealing with credibility issues
So I wanted to post about this because it's still something I deal with even though people close to me know I'm in recovery and doing everything I can to get well.
I've had many a ridiculous scenario arise as a result of my drinking. Unfortunately many of them were public and although most people are supportive and forgiving, sometimes I feel like that's the one cheap shot that can always be thrown at me and it completely silences and shames me. I take responsibility for my bad behavior and don't expect 100% patience from everyone; I was a nightmare drinker, blacking out all the time and ruining people's nights, making friends and family worry constantly etc.
How do you all deal with things following you around that you feel are impossible to atone for? Some things I don't even remember... Nor do I want to.