I think I was born with anxiety. Tried to self medicate with alcohol...but once that was removed the anxiety was still there. So even sober...I wake up once in awhile with horrible thoughts. I am a what iffer. What if this happened...what if that happened. Then blow it up to catastrophic proportions. Not sure how to fix it! I pray when it comes up. Or meditate a good thought over and over in my head. I think a lot of alcoholics have something mental going on in the background. I think trauma starts us drinking. BUT who am I to think...