i think mine was pretty simple...i always thought i had another chance at sobriety. I'd get bored, angry, complacent, in some cases, feel better and i'd just go back out thinking i could taper myself down and get clean on my own whenever i was really ready.
I chased that for 4 years right into a nearly fatal bout of withdrawal.
I think some of the best advise i ever got in therapy while i was in rehab was this:
1. you really aren't as smart as you think you are.
2. Keep things simple. When you constantly self- analyze and Lord forbid, pontificate, you forget rule number 1 and then you're half way out the door.
3. You're out of chances. period. re-read rules 1-2.