Originally Posted by
Meisme 
I don't know what's wrong with me except I am an alcoholic that no matter how much drinking and weed has hurt my life I keep going back to them.
Imo, its a little more than youre an alcoholic. im an alcoholic,too, but haven't had a drink in a few years. I decided I had had enough. I surrendered.
and went from practicing alcoholic to recovered alcoholic.
so, imo, you haven't surrendered.
hope ya decide to do that soon.
personally I think them relapses end with a drink.