Here we go...again.
Today is day 2.
After quitting for 3 1/2 months, I caved and ended up smoking for another 4 months.
Just a bit more than a little disgusted at myself. Medicinal indica put me in a non-stop eating coma. When I wasn't eating, I was sleeping. Gained 23 pounds! Enough.
So with this added weight gain, I expect withdrawal to be worse than the last time. And I experienced as much yesterday. Daytime hot flashes were many and sleep was nearly non-existant.
What could I have done differently this time to stay off the pot?
I didn't smack down that AV when it spoke to me. I needed to stay firm in my resolve. I needed to play the tape. I just wish the footage was uglier.
Alcohol has an ugly recording. Alcohol breaks down your front door, smashes all your windows, furniture, everything.
Pot just knocks at the door and doesn't stop. So annoying, but not devastating. Just go the frack away and leave me alone.
So I am back to a clean diet and sweat producing exercise.
I have a theory that the severity of withdrawal is directly related to the amount of excess body fat. I was rail thin last time and withdrawal was a breeze. So far, not so much.
Have an amazing sober weekend, everyone!