Originally Posted by
Meisme I don't know what's wrong with me except I am an alcoholic.
Yup, that's whats wrong with both of us. Don't beat yourself up. Just stop drinking now and get a long term plan for sobriety; AA, rehab, therapy, etc.. Sit down and think about it and write it down. Sometimes it's better if you see it written out. You need help and a plan to stay sober, IMHO.