Well, you admitted you are an alcoholic. I don't know of any alcoholics who can go back to drinking socially...
From the Big Book:
"The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker."
I tried every way possible to control it. But when I controlled my drinking, I couldn't enjoy it, and when I was enjoying my drinking, I couldn't control it...
Best advice I could give you would be to go to AA, and don't drink... then find a sponsor, and start working the steps...
Ken