Originally Posted by
Serendipitous 
Lava, if I saw a doctor tomorrow, he/she would probably tell me to get my affairs into order. Not ready to die. ..
Welcome to SR, Serendipitous. So very glad that you found us.
This sounds dire; seeing your doctor now (rather than later) would very likely be prudent. I hope very much that you can find a way to do that.
As you mentioned, your daughter needs you.
Again, welcome; we are here for you.