i'm so glad you didnt drink.
I get how you feel best i can say is "thers going to be to moments like this" I kinda started to realize i coudlnt count on anything. I could however count on life being life which basicly meant i could basicly count on not being able to count on anything
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I get like that at times too and its like GNNNNN lifes a real piece of crap sometimes this stings etc... what to do other then not drink and push forward? I mean really going backwards to booze well we know ehre that path goes so why not try the path that doesnt have it and see how that goes. I hit a point where it was like geeze i guess i got nothing to loose. I"m screwed if i drink. and my AV would say your screwed if you dont drink. Reality was I was not screwed if i didnt drink. Life would still suck at times sure but it was still better then trying to deal with it while drinking.
hang in there.