I found my issue was I didn't trust myself. After all I had made a series of really bad choices that lead to me becoming an alcoholic. I also acted like an ass for a couple of years there and was kind of embarrassed about that. I was still holding on to the fear that I wouldn't stay off the alcohol too. It took some time to earn my own trust back but it eventually happened. I also trust me to be able to handle it if someone gets the jump on me or lies. No matter what I'll survive.