Old 04-09-2017, 09:15 PM
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argillaceous
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Hi Marchers.

Good news, bad news.

Good news: Mr. Arg was away for the weekend, first time since I got sober, and in the wee hours of Saturday morning (up with pain) I gave myself permission to drink Saturday night. But when the time came I decided not to drink. So that's good. And, today is Day 15, so that means that I have surpassed the number of non-drinking days I had since I first made the commitment to quit Feb. 24 (13, and then 11).

Bad news: I am feeling very, very unsteady these days. I know that's just AV trying to set the stage for a relapse, but it's how I'm feeling. My seemingly relentless chronic pain issues, which I was medicating with alcohol, are an easy way for AV to get in.

I feel stuck between two worlds.
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