Originally Posted by
LoftyIdeals 
Sunshine, thank you so much for your post. Acceptance is so hard for me. And I am very confused by it all. And obsessed. I cant think about anything else. I am frozen in time, and just lovesick.
I. did drink Friday, and yesterday and will likely today. So its day -1 for me. But I will be back tomorrow.
It's a double ****** situation, Lofty, but you won't have any chance at all at reuniting if you don't change, and that means you have to be sober, and not just for a month or two, but for life. By solving the first problem, you may have a shot at solving the second. If the marriage is too badly damaged, you may have to accept that and respect her wishes.