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Old 04-06-2017, 04:50 PM
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Dee74
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I'm not sure denial is the right word for me.

I knew for well over a decade that my substance abuse was a problem but I rationalised it various ways -
  • if you had a life like mine,
  • I work hard so I play hard,
  • everyone I know drinks like this...

yadda yadda yadda

The basic thing holding me back was fear.

I wanted to be able to drink as much as I wanted and have absolutely no negative consequences. That part could be classed as denial of reality lol.

I didn't want to change my life or be different...and that fear kept me tapped there until the last possible moment I could have gotten out alive.

Scary stuff.

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