Originally Posted by
drunkgirl97 
I'm scared if I stop drinking I'll stop going out and meeting people .
That's a common fear, but it's totally untrue. Your addiction would love to have you believe it though. There's a lot of fear involved with drinking to be certain.
It seems you are at what a lot of us called the "bargaining" stage with your addiction right now. You are working very hard to find reasons why you can't stop or why you should keep drinking, but deep down you know that drinking itself is the problem. Pretty much everything bad that is happening to you right now is a direct result of you drinking alcohol. All the other stuff ( relationships, depression, etc ) is CAUSED by the drinking. And you cannot fix any of it until you stop drinking.
There is a way out though. Seek help like you are doing here now, and seek help locally. You are never too young or too old to quit.