Kaily,
At best, the Beast literally rips off your life, and takes away the most limited commodity there is -- precious time. It doesn't care about you at all, not even about your health, or your sanity. Everything of value, including your body, is simply a commodity to be cashed in for ITS personal parties, just like the money that buys the alcohol.
The Beast keeps you stuck in place, often for years, by making you believe that ITS deprivation is your deprivation, and by attacking your character, your self-confidence, and your resolve. It is literally an enemy within -- a parasite, if ever there was one.
You joined this site in January 2015, for example, and were made aware of the existence of AVRT, and this secular forum, way back then, when you were wondering if you could succeed at quitting drinking. A couple of people told you that they had quit drinking by using AVRT.
Kaily's first thread -
Something prevented you from looking into AVRT earlier, though. Who do you reckon that 'something' was? All of that self-doubt that you had back then, over two years ago, supported more drinking. It was the Addictive Voice of the Beast!
I repeat: the Beast is an enemy within -- a parasite. You must be willing to let it suffer by starvation, and drive it into the ground, or it will one day drive you six feet under instead. It really is that simple.