Welcome DonnaNix and congratulations on joining the largest club no-one wanted to join. I wish I had your self realization in my 20s. I spent 30 years to figure out my problem was going to cause problems. Meanwhile I lost almost every friend, relationship and respect that I had.
Good luck and come back often for advice, support, information, shoot the **** or whatever else reason you feel to post. You can put the plug in the jug and live a happy joyous life that you are seeing in jeopardy right now.