Originally Posted by
DonnaNix 
Hi,
....I'm so scared that I won't be able to stop, and that I'll ruin all the good things I have in life.
....
That's a real possibility.
Maybe leave early for work tomorrow morning. Instead of stopping at the liquor store, go to a meeting. I don't know where you live, but lots of places have early morning meetings.
Try it just for tomorrow morning and see what happens. Go with an open mind. You never know.