Is it a tightrope or is failure planned?
This forum is great. I was wondering what people's views are on why, if ever, they relapsed.
I'm just coming up to two weeks sober and part of me feels that I'm walking a tightrope and could succumb at any moment. There is still alcohol in the house because partner and adult kids drink (in a controlled way).
But I'm wondering if this is a good way to think of it. Is it more the case that deep down we start planning to drink again because, e.g., we begin to feel complacent and over-confident, or we forget just how desperate we had become.
I find the tightrope analogy more worrying because it seems that there is not much you can do whereas if it is more that you gradually loose sight of your plan you are more in control. This would be scary in a different way of course because it means that you have to take responsibility! Given the choice though, I'd prefer this option