I've been struggling with your posts as well, Liz. Life is not perfect and of course your step-family is not going to be the same as a blood family. But this is a safe place for you to put things out there about your feelings and I respect that. You have jumped from a relationship in crisis with an addict to a very intimate family-style arrangement with other people. Of course there us going to be bumpiness. Be sure to count your blessings that you have caring, loving people that give a sh*t in your life!