For 27 years my main activity in life was drinking and I structured my life around it.
Everything I did had to involve drinking and if I had to do anything that didn't involve drinking I was miserable and couldn't enjoy it because I wanted to drink.
It was an exhausting, depressing way to live but for so long I was a slave to the bottle and didn't know (or feared) how to change.
I am 5 months sober and so happy and content - I never want to go back to that misery.