Right why top it all off with professional suicide? You don't own Ms. HR an explanation. Things will get better. I had an anxiety attack at the DMV ...I was at the end where you have to sign your name for them to print out your new license. I was shaking so bad it was a squiggle. DMV lady said REALLY? This is your signature? It is all I can manage today was my reply. She ended up using my signature from the last one and put it on my new license. I was grateful.