I totally understand the dilemma of committing to never drink again when I knew I had to make it. What I did was committed to not drinking for 6 months. In that six months I committed to going to 3 AA meetings a week. Around 4 months I decided to get a sponsor and started working the steps. That changed my life completely once I worked the steps. The urge, craving, desire to drink disappeared. Now skipping ahead a year, I can't say for sure that I will never drink again but I can say that I won't drink today.
Good luck and many prayers