Originally Posted by
Steely 
I want forever sobriety and that's for sure, so I try to have two bob each way and think that a single day is forever in some philosophers handbook.
This is a very important statement. In AA we don't ask anyone to promise anything, or to make projections about the future. What we look at is desire - "I want", not what I promise to do, or what I decide to do. A similar statement sums it up in the big book. "If you want (there's that desire again) what we have and are willing to go to any lengths to get it, then you are ready to take certain steps".
Bob said if you want to stop for good and want some help, we have a solution for you.
So that's the question. Do you want to stop for good, no more misery? Or do you feel, like the previous poster, that there might still be some reward left in drinking?