Doctor Bob talked about stopping "for good and all". I suppose you either want to stop for good, or you don't. Personally, I wanted the misery to stop for good. I was well past the delusion that there was any pleasure left in drinking.
Could the second half of the first step direction still be up in the air for you? "The delusion that we are like other people, or presently maybe, has to be smashed"
Why? Because in that delusion lie the seeds of relapse. It will undermine any effort to recover with the idea that I don't need to do this or that because one day I will be able to drink normally. Drink normally, the great obsession of every abnormal drinker.