Hey Poppy! And thanks for your nice words
Yes I hope so, too! That was one possible explanation for my AV still being hyperactive. It doesn't help that when I walk around the streets in the area where I live everyone seems to be drinking in the early mornings already. There's active alcoholics literally everywhere I go. Last night there was somewhat of a riot in the supermarket cause they were sold out on the cheap vodka...
Maybe I just have to give myself a bit more time. Im just scared of doing this the "wrong " way or not being good enough in my approach to recovery, old thinking patterns I guess.
Been thinking lots about giving AA another try, there's a lot of confusion in my head.