Welcome back drunkgirl. Nothing is too drastic when it comes to saving your life. When I was at the same point you are at now, my plan was give AA a solid 30 days. If I didn't see progress then I was going to do 30 day in patient program. AA has been my program and solution so far. You can do this and you deserve sobriety along with a happy fun life. DON'T DRINK and GET to some meetings. Everything will fall into place once you get happy and sober. Many prayers