Hi Harry and welcome to the SR family!
You're in a good place here. Awesome, awesome job on day 13. Those first couple weeks for me, were always tough. It will get better!
Ditto what thomas said. Not here to judge and we do care and support everyone here because we all end up here for a reason; we are struggling and we want to find a different way, or a solution. A light at the end of the tunnel.
Coming here, reaching out and 13 days under your belt is a great start.