Well done on giving up.
I've been an on and off alcoholic for the best part of 30 years, with many bouts of sobriety up to 2 years in one case.
Stopping drinking has never been my problem, staying stopped, that's been the struggle.
I'm sure there are some with the personality that can go back to moderate drinking, but I'm for sure not one of them.
My brain has always been able to come up with creative reasons to have
'just one drink' that wont hurt!
All it takes is one drink, and all my sobriety is out the window, and it's off to the races.
I 'think' that for most alcoholics our brains are just wired to be either, all in, or all out.