Originally Posted by
ChangeIsComing6 
Thanks. I've been harboring this demon in me for a few years, no one knows accept my now ex (which is why he's gone). I know talking to someone and getting this ALLLL out of me is needed and the first step to getting to help. I've tried quitting and cutting back all to no avail. After a few day binder that I almost indirectly lost my job too, I'm now racked with guilt and the withdrawals are unbearable. The impending doom that my job may now know of my struggle and that I will lose it, is killing me. The shakes, sweats and chills, and anxiety are sitting in the pit of my chest like a 7 ton elephant.
You will find plenty of support here on this forum. What you describe above will all go away if you can quit drinking. Many of us have been through it and it is pure hell. But after a few months of sobriety it will be gone. The withdrawals and doom (along with other things) were enough to make me quit. I'm so glad I did. You will be too.