Purposeful suffering Algorithm, interesting, I never heard that phrase before.
Thats where I was thinking the self-pity would lead. Self pity, then self blame, then self hatred, then an excuse to drink and feel better.
I know it seems obvious to everyone else, but I have JUST realised, all the "reasons" I had for drinking, drink doesn't work for!
The separation me from IT I find easy enough, as in all the years I have asked myself "Why, after all this misery, do you still want to drink?" And part of me really didn't want to drink. So I find it easy enough to think IT, this rogue drive wants drink, but I, who I think of as ME doesn't, it's ruined my life.
"Simply recognize the Beast's revisionistic nature, and never allow the Beast to change the motivation for ITs personal parties. "
Yes
Thanks Alogorithm
I'm sorry if I seem a bit dim with all of this. I used to have a really sharp fast mind, but the last 6 months of the 1 1/2 pints to 3 pints of vodka a day benders, seem to have taken it's toll