It didn't do me any good to dream, reminisce,
wish, look, etc at alcohol when shopping in
early recovery.
Yes, I knew and know that alcohol is everywhere,
lurking, just waiting to snag someone, anyone,
like a beautiful red apple in the garden of Edan,
temptation, knowing all good and well that I
cant touch it, that it is poison, that it could kill
me.
I did put on my blinders in early recovery,
had my grocery list in hand, walked quickly
thru the isles I needed to go, got what was
on my list and go the heck out of there pronto.
Of course this is and was me, vowing to
do whatever I needed to do to avoid the
wrath of addiction I was working so hard
to keep out of my life.
With rehab behind me, armed with tools
and knowledge of my illness, sickness taught
to me and a program of recovery as my
guideline, I continue to stand strong against
the evils of poison that will always be tempting,
lurking at the grocery stores.
I had and still have NO business around
alcohol if I am to remain successful in my
own recovery life to maintain health,
happiness, honesty, responsibility, purpose,
passionate, serene etc.
Over the yrs, I continue to learn from
others that alcohol is still alive and well,
and isn't going anywhere's. So there's no
need to ever think that I will ever be a
normal, successful drinker of alcohol
without the poisonous, addictive affects
it has on my mind, body and soul.