I caught myself in a full fantasy today about my upcoming vacation, really strong and vivid and then I caught myself..... and I just observed what it was, my addiction, my AV and I actually smiled and thought there you are... I see you. And then I thought about all my reasons for quitting, because it just doesn't align with my values and who I want to be, because I am better than living down IT. I felt really strong and good and started fantasizing about how great my vacation will be sober and how much more time and energy I will have to do other cool things.
