Thanks for the replies.. Over the course of my 20some year drinking career I've had a few months sobriety here and there and I've had my relapses but none of those relapses compare to the one I just had after 2 years sober. This time around I was drunk 24/7, if I was awake I was drinking and this time around it was blackout drunk, those 2 weeks are a blur. This time around was completely different its like the addiction came back with vengeance. All I know is some time around that tail end of the bender I told my wife I need help this time and I had her drive me to a rehab facility for detox. I knew I had to get myself to a safe place where I could not have access to alcohol. Hopefully this post will save someone else who is having those thoughts of being a "Normal Drinker"...