The progression is very obvious now...at the time it never occurred to me that after finishing a bottle I could finish two with little effort and it should have set off an alarm.
The weekends are the hardest for me...I enjoy being alone and the independence, but loneliness is a whole different ballgame. I don't deliberately set out to isolate, I just over time have connected less and shared less.
I brood and ruminate about myself, but I am leaps and bounds more kind and supportive of the people I love.
In my recent abstinence, I have been able to feel and think with more clarity than I have in a long time. I am very grateful for that.
SR is very comforting. I hope I have some time between myself and drinking at some point to help others as everyone here does for one another.