Just confessing before I change my mind - I was very close to drinking an hour ago, gave myself permission to buy 2 cans of vodka lemonade stuff because it doesn't taste like alcohol and since I've been sober the thought of the taste makes me ill, which luckily made me really think about how stupid it would be to drink at all. There's part of me that thinks maybe I should still grab those cans for tomorrow or 'just in case' even though I'm not interested in drinking today anymore
Idk addict brains are silly I guess. I don't think I'll buy any, just writing it out to try and push myself away from the thought