This reminding me of episode of Intervention where Candy say about how one alcoholic was at particular risk cuz she had relapse more than few times, so now: "relapse was part of her story."
... Well, that pierce through me. Cuz I has rely on that "story" lot of times to keep drinking. Is same for "after first sip is no stop me." Which I also make part of my story, so that give me license to go nuts anytime I slip.
For me, I has to make very focus effort to retract this story, otherwise I gonna be doom to repeat it.